Going away…

I have plans to go away for a short trip… I know going away on a trip at this time will be kind of risky for me, so i have to be very careful. Yah, i know, but i do not want to disappoint my firstborn… It is now, or a good 9-10 months later…

I am so so excited and scared at the same time and everything’s like new too me (afterall, it had been 6 years)… and worst of all, i have to hide the elation, just to be safe… Imagine your heart bursting with joy, and what you really like to do is to shout at the top of your voice, announcing to everyone what you are going through now… but you cant, and you have to be cool about it…

Calling…

I cant help it anymore, i think i have to tell someone about it or else i will go crazy! But Husband and I both think that it is critical to get the result from the doctor before we let out the news… I agree…

Doctor finally called at 5.30pm, after i had called the his clinic 3 times pressing for an answer…

“Congratulations madam, Its positive!”

I told my mum, she is elated with joy.

I think my baby will be due in July next year… I am so excited, but I am scared to know how fast all this is getting… I had just married my husband for less than a month and me and my first-born (oh yah, she’s a girl if i had not mentioned before) are still trying to adapt to our new living arrangements. With a new baby on the way, i wonder how we’ll cope.

I have to start taking care of myself already. I need to be healthy for my baby.

The wait…

It really amazing to know how nature had made you the way you are… The last time i was pregnant with a child (6 years ago), I had this funny feeling in the guts… something in me was growing, and i knew it well before i did the home pregnancy test… Of course it wasnt planned, and I was very helpless being only 16.

For the past few days, I woke up with a funny sensation in my stomach. Somewhat like what i had 6 years ago. Could it really be what we’ve been wanting? I remember the indicator on the home-pregnancy test showing a negative 3 days ago, but something in me triggered and this morning i put together the courage to try again.

I had probably stayed in my bathroom for some 5 minutes… before i finally peeped on the test-kit… Probably this brand works better? I must be smiling when the test-kit indicated a positive sign… I cannot believe it.

So the next thing i know is climbing onto the bed, gently teasing the sound-asleep Husband, “Dear wake up… i have something to tell you…”

“Huuuuhhhhh…..” yawned my husband

“I am pregnant!”

“You did the test?” Husband’s look at me… I love the smile on his face…

“Mmm. Its a positive.”

We hugged for a while and i told him we have to visit the family doctor to confirm it before we tell anyone about this.

Happily we went to the clinic and doctor asked me some questions, tested my blood pressure and finally, the test for existance of hcG in my urine. We waited for a while, my first-born impatiently flipping through the limited library of children’s book in the waiting room… and when the doctor called my name… we proceeded, only to get an equivocal positive – meaning “not exactly pregnant”.

Doctor said it could be too early now to get a result from my urine sample. Hence he suggested a blood test.

We gladly complied… however, i tried not to feel too upset by it… but i must say i am affected in a way for not able to get a clear and distinct result. I hate to wait, its unbearable. Hopefully we will be able to know by this Tuesday.